Saturday, May 04, 2013
wheeee! the present came 1 day early hee. its so pretty =D
Monday, April 15, 2013
25th april faster come please..! hee. incoming present wheee! omg i really hope she doesnt guess correctly what it is!! please let her guess that it is something else... i want it to surprise her =D hopefully she likes the presentttt hehe.
Sunday, April 07, 2013
omg i'm so happy!! wheeeeee just got a present ystd for something i've been wanting for a really long time hee =D
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
wow, today was just such a fucked up day. practically quarreled with every fucking person i'm supposedly close to; mother, big sis, second sis, girlfriend. fuck.
Monday, March 11, 2013
omg its a revival of this 10 year old blog ahahaha. i will commence writing again for a special someone hee =D stay tuned for more content xD
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
when i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
"i wont leave you"
Saturday, October 02, 2010
hahaha, i was right. you met him for lunch, after all. damn, i'm good at this shit. hahah. sigh. it burns pretty badly, man. totally don't feel like ur boyfriend.
Friday, October 01, 2010
today you said you had to go baillieu first.. i dunno, i think i'm super paranoid. haha. somehow, the idea of you meeting him secretly just comes to my mind. i shouldn't be thinking like that. and even if you are, it's not supposed to matter to me because you don't have to treat me like a boyfriend. i'm supposed to share you anyways. argh. gotta let you fly away and i can't keep you shackled to me. the only thing i can do is to fly alongside you.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
30th september! your anniversary with him, huh. a significant day for you, still. i dunno what i should do, really. to just leave you alone and give you time? because thats what you said you needed, until you got over him. or should i do smth about it so you can take ur mind off him? i dunno. what do i do? i cant meet you on ur special day with him. feels as if youre still with him, haha. i live a pretty sad life, agreeing to be second all the time. oh well, better than nothing. picking up scraps of love is better than finding none. kinda feel like helping you remind you on every 30th of every month, but thats just me being an ass, haha. arghh. gotta tough it out! cmon, go me!
Friday, August 27, 2010
i'm so happy you didn't go clubbing! hee. =DD
yes i know, after a 2-year long hiatus, i am back. hahaha. can't believe it, actually. but i need a place to vent. so i thought, why not just use this. no one reads this anyway, after being dead for 2 years, hahah.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
until this echo echo ecko eko can subside.
Friday, August 29, 2008
i should leave you alone.
Friday, August 22, 2008
and it just happened again, just as ive imagined. heh.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
after a one and a half year hiatus,
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
1994 - colon
Saturday, April 05, 2008
fucken dickhead is gonna die. if i ever find out who he is. ho ho ho. i wonder whats gonna happen to him.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
i dunno why la, but its like you can mention his name and not mine. i think its unintentional though, but still, feels like he's more important. you see him so much more than i do now. and he's getting a lot more attention then i used to, when i knew you for 3 months. what the fuck, right? yeah. oh well.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
wheeee! today was a super exciting day =D the last year i have as a teenager!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
went out with baby today! omg i just came home after like, 6 hours of walking around due to shopping!! damn shagged. my legs feel like breaking la. =.= started off from chinatown, met baby there cuz she was collecting donations over there. moved on to tanjong pagar, then to orchard. checked out wisma for some dress that baby wanted. but it wasnt suitable hehehehe. went to makan at ajisen ramen at taka. aiya, and then i forgot to withdraw money, no money to eat. so i had to go out and hunt for the atm. after that, the shopping began!
Thursday, November 29, 2007
it was a full black tonal watch! black face, with black leather strap. and the cool part is that it even has light =O was quite surprised because i didnt know when i bought it hahah.
apparently she knew that the present was gonna be a watch. damn. then she said she was really worried cuz she's fussed about watches and was afraid i would get her one that she wouldnt like. fortunately i picked out one that was to her liking hee =DD
SUCCESS!
cant wait for her exams to finishhhh. surprise dinner next! hee ;D
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and, my clothes that i ordered online are here! from busan, korea ahaha. they are nice, but seem a little bit tight.. should have ordered XL instead! urgh. and one of the tees out of the three that came seem a bit off.. thought it was more black.. turns out it was like maroonish brown.. oh well.
EXCITED FOR 25TH APRIL, still!! hahahaha
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was so surprised, i wasnt even expecting it at allllll. now i know why she was talking to adrian hahaha omg. now i neeed to get a chopard watch, pandora bracelet, prada shoes, lv bag, tiff & co necklace. hahahahahaa
anyway, 100th day coming hee. ♥♥♥
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this helps to destress me. hahaha.
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cuz you're amazing just the way you are.
and when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while.
cuz girl, you're amazing just the way you are.
sorry i didn't give you enough attention today =c i'll improve myself and become the one you are looking for. i will make it up to you after the exams, alright? loves! <3
sorry i am not as good as him.
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i felt like you just did tonight. haha.
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and then there's tonight. apparently you said goodbye to 'someone'. and then you cried. looks like you still really do have strong feelings for him. according to you, i should be happy. there's no way i can be happy if i know you cried. and since you said i should be happy, and that you said goodbye, that must mean that he gave up on you. and you were so affected by it and you cried. when we broke up, i don't think you cried. i can't believe how insignificant i am to you. but still, i won't give up. even though you make me feel like i'm not ur boyfriend, i will continue to love you, and act as if you're my girlfriend. you don't have to reciprocate, i understand. but sometimes, it is just tough knowing that he means so much more to you than i do. i know you're going through a really hard time too.. i hope you will get over him as soon as possible.
did you cry because your safety net disappeared? you were sad that you could no longer go back to him. which basically means i was just a spare tyre. well, i don't think you treat me like that. i really trust you and i believe that you truly do love me. it's just that sometimes, i just can't help thinking like that. you make me feel so miserable at times. but like i said, i wasn't even supposed to be your boyfriend again. you gave me a second chance. so i'll let you trample all over me. if you treat me as your boyfriend just sometimes, that is good enough for me. a second class citizen in ur heart only deserves that much.
i pray that one day, i'll be first class. the only thing you will ever need.
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ooooh yes. almost forgot. も一人、ね。totally felt like moving myself to 'friends' that night. hahah. cuz thats how i'm supposed to be, right. and then i thought to myself, maybe i should do the same. have a group called 'the other one(s)' as well, and just put random girl(s) in there and see how you feel. haha. but i cant do that. that would hurt you. i'm not supposed to hurt you. just me getting hurt is better that both of us. after all, i've acknowledged the fact youre not over him. gotta act more maturely and not let it affect me so badly. shouldnt be raging and emoing over this. mhm. although sometimes i should be 'the other one', heh.
on a side note, i think i'll prolly get my ear pierced when i wake up later. theres no other better time than this date. haha. must remind myself - i'm not your boyfriend! just only so in name.
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and now i know why i'm so possessive over you. it's because i'm yours, but yet i can't act as if i am. because we're keeping it in the shadows, guys don't know about it. and i don't like it that they hit on you. you're so beautiful, guys definitely wanna try for you if they know you're single. but if they know you're mine, they'll know that they'll be messing with me if they mess with you. it's so hard. but there's only 3 more months for me to go! gogo me. =D
and then the issue about the ex... please don't say you will break up with me. i thought i was ahead of him because you're mine. but if we break up, i lose that advantage, and i think i will never get you back. because the day that we break up is the day you finally realise that he's a great guy, and i'm just a bad mistake. it's tough to fight on with a guy who was so perfect for you, and has even agreed to wait on you.. please don't leave me, cuz i'll wait for you too, until you are over him.
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edit: i should prolly sticky this; i find myself wanting to say this all the time. haha.
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look at all the good things around you instead.
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calm and unaffected,
only to you.
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it just feels like its gonna happen again.
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2006 - small intestine
2008 - kidney
fuck you cancer, leave my dad alone.
you did ur phonebook and msn,
but you forgot facebook and friendster.
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but i wont show any reaction or expression. wont let it affect me, cuz i shouldnt be.
until the day we finally crumble.
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went to east coast park with baby for my birthday! and i got a very big surprise hehe. i was a bit late meeting baby oops. >.< for about 10 mins la. then we went to eat macs! had a upsized mcnuggets meal. yumm. oh yah, i also had a happy bday balloon! whee! =D
and then we were supposed to go upstairs for pool. so on the way up, i really wasnt paying much attention. but apparently there were some pple at the top of the staircase. and then before i knew it brendan and james came out and totally just CREAMED me la. lol. they had a can of whipped cream each and i got sprayed IN MY LEFT EYE. =.= my shirt and my berms had a bit. and my bag strap also. grahh. i stank after that. it was quite gross. eww. and i got a nice surprise! got many many little hearts. baby used my msn and randomly asked pple for happy bday greetings! then wrote them down on little hearts and cutted them out. so sweet la! oh and i had a happy bday card also =D
oh and then before we went down we played table soccer! haha. I ALWAYS WIN AT IT WEKEKEKEK =D whether i play defense or attack. >x) and then there were quite a few funny own goals also. hahaah.
since we couldnt light candle in the pool placey, we went to one of the benches on the beach and we cut cake!! and then the candles are cheet. they cant be blown out zz. they kept on sparkling. so i just took them all off and doused them with water hehehe. cutted the cake, then ate. and then we did some gross stuff with the whipped cream also. lol. quite sick. xD oh yah, and i think they wanted to throw me into the sea also. but lucky they didnt, cuz it was like, drizzling slightly. and the sky was overcast. the water woulda been freezing.
then we went to this pub placey. i cant rmb the name. it was next to the macs. or nearby la. i had a pint of STRONGBOW. it tasted quite good actually. i never really did like beer. but this one wasnt too bad. and i really cant hold liquor well. my face was REALLY REALLY red after just one beer. =.= and baby was so guai i kept offering her but she dowan. heheeh. what an angel (a) xD
after that, the whole thing was more or less over la. we were outside macs chilling away and joking away. hahah. i think ken is damn funny plz. xD thereafter, we went our separate ways already. mhmm. spent some alone time with baby. =)
THANKS BABY FOR COORDINATING THE WHOLE SURPRISE =D love you muchly, babe =D
k la gonna slp now. goonight world!
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went to fox to buy skirt for her. was quite mini. hahah. taka after that, went to lvl 3 to buy a miss bunny file. checked out heeren and cine for things to buy. but then i couldnt find anything nice to buy. urghh. damn sad la. i find it so hard to find clothes i like >.>
more or less gave up on shopping already, so went to bibi and baba at shaw for baby's uniform. but then it was closed =.= we missed it by about 40 mins. then there was a mango around, so we checked it out and almost bought a top there. but in the end never.
went to da bao dinner and FINALLY GOT HOME!! whooo. omg im damn shagged now pls. gonna slp k bye! =D
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